26 March 2009

there is ONLY 1 word to DESCRIBE wad i feel right now..

the word is TIRED!!!!

today is damn freaking tiring day for me!!!
just now woke up early in d morning n go to school..
2day i just attend 1 1/2 lesson ONLY!!!
the reason being is because i went to the SYF rehearsal..
yeah...
we had our rehearsal TODAY!!!
everything was fine..
till we found out that we missing out something..
which is our CD!!!
then the teacher in charge hv to went back to school n take the CD..
anyway...
i dun wan tok much abt it...
we only hv 30min to practice!!
n 30 min is NOT ENOUGH!!!
can u imagine?!?!
u never ever perform at this place n yet u hv to do the blocking correctly!!
n yet we only hv 30 min!!!
overall we did our best la during the rehearsal..
before we went up to the stage...
while we were waiting..
our instructor share her experiences n all stuff..
n she tried her best to bring us up..
i mean like she makes us 4get abt wad had happened earlier..
yeah..
thatz wad she did..
and yet we still cant 4get abt it when we were dancing..
n its effect the whole thing..
sigh...
lots of things to b done!!
some more the teacher suggest her to work on our into or to change the position..
syf is only 2more weeks n we hv to change the position again?!?!
oh.. man!!!
anyway...
everything is alrite during the afternoon dance practice...
she change the choreography just for the intro!!
n we manage to learn it fast..
after all this things happened we as a team..
the malay dance group just feel like the bonding between us getting stronger n stronger...
thatz wad i feel...
i duno abt wad they feel abt it...
from i dun really like or dun really wan to go for dance practice till i like to go for every session even i'm damn bloody tired!!!
okey... mayb i go for the practice coz i HAVE to b there each n every practice
or else it will effect the whole team rite?!?!
wad my instructor said was right..
she said "when 1 of us get hurt... all of us in the team will feel the pain as well.."
yeah... thats true..
thatz wad i feel just now..
when 1 of the dancers get scolded badly..
i just feel so sad abt it..
not feel sad abt her but feel sad abt wad the teacher did to us...
**no OFENCE plz!!

n u know wad?!?!
during the dance practice our beloved instructor
gave us a present...
well..
even its just a small present..
it means a lot for us..
it become some kind of motivation for us...
*again,,, this wad i feel
we just dun wanna let her down again..
we just dun wanna disappointed her again..
yeah... we just wanna giv our best shot on that day it self..
coz at the end of the day when we.. as a team...
when we dance as 1 we will feel grate n our instructor will b very happy to c us
giving our best..
coz she d 1 who think hard for us..
the d 1 who put so much effort..
she get stress out coz of us...
we just wanna giv our best for her..
n also for our school...
well..
thaz for today...

actually lots of things happened today..
before the rehearsal... during the rehearsal.. after the rehearsal..
after school... during the dance practice...
lots n lots n lots of things happened within A DAY!!
well.. like wad i've said on my previous previous post..
anything can happen within a day... a week... a month... a year...
even an hour anything can happen...
so.. we cant predict wad gonna happen next..
so... just wait n C wad will happen.. ^^,

i just sSoOo.. TIRED!!
just wanna go to my bed n ZoOm to my "DREAM LAND"
hahahaha..
dunno wad's gonna happen in my dream land later?!?! =p
2mrw gonna go to school..
**as per normal!
gonna meet my besties...
gonna meet my crazy friends...
gonna do lots of work in school...
gonna face all the homework n tests...
sigh...

NITES READERS...

^^,

♥I just MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!♥

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24 March 2009

Walao... today late to school..
hahaahhahaaa...
i very lazy to wake up today!!
thatz Y i'm late!! =p
school as pernormal..
nth special..
during geog lesson almost 80% of the class
hv to stand on the chair coz they didnt hand in their hw.
they hv to stand outside the class..
n for those who hv done d hw remain seated in the class..
mdm yap really angry just now..
of course la..
if i were her i also will angry!!
almost all the students in the class didnt hand in the hw..

sigh... last nite dream abt him!!!
i just duno Y i dream abt him!!
i dream that on my birthday he come to my house..
he wait for me under my block..
i c him waiting for me when i was walking at the bridge with siti..
when i c him there..
at the plc where we always sit..
i just dun wan to c him..
i just wanna run away from him...
but my heart insist to do that..
i just walk towards him...
then we started to tok n he giv me smth..
he also ask me to look at his ez-link card..
he paste the SAME sticker on his ez-link card...
*wad is the link?!?! my dream is always very weird!! and wad is the use of showing his ez-link card which hv same sticker like my ez-link card?!?!
anyway...
after that we tok tok tok n tok...
siti just leave me n him alone..
then...
guess wad?!!??!!
he asked for patch!!!
then i was like " what the *^%@ "
then i just start to cry!!!
duno cry for wad?!?!
then i wake up!!!
so its like duno wads going to happen next?!?!
hahhhahahaa...
yeah...
it is just a dream...
dream might be come true
BUT
most of the time it is just gonna be a DREAM!!!
anything can happen in ur DREAM n in the MOVIE...
am i rite?!?!

I duno Y i have this STRONG feeling that
HE WILL NOT COME BACK TO ME...
thats wad i feel...
coz he cant b bothered abt me now...
so i guess thats the end of it...
i also duno wad i gonna tell him or wad i gonna say
to him when he asked me to start all over again next time..
to be HONEST...
i really DUNO wad i gonna say to him..
*but for the time being HE WILL NOT ASK ME TO PATCH BACK..
but when the day comes i really duno wad's gonna happen..
OR may be that day WILL NEVER COME?!!??!!
anyway...
i just carry on with my life now...
just c wad's gonna happen next...

Okey,,,

Cya Guys...

i wanna study for my test 2mrw...
duno hv bio test or not?!?!
if have i gonna FAIL!!!
i havent even revise any chapter!!!
sigh,,,

tha... tha...

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23 March 2009

2day is d 1st day of school...
nth much to say abt today...
my "lovely" school has started NEW system!!
yeah.. so called NEW!!
anyway...
dun wan to tok much abt it,,,
just follow d rules..
hahhaa...

dance practice as per normal..
but 2day there is video taking for us..
so that we can C out performance..
we havent C it yet..
but sooner we will C..
SYF is about 2 more weeks..
we only hv few more practices..
time flies man!!!
now is already end of march..
next week is already APRIL...
exam also coming!!!
huh...
lots n lots n lots of things to b done..

anyway...
just now after dance practice met siti at BP..
on my way to BPP i met mimi n i drag him to follow me!
hhahaha...
at the end his plan to go to BOON LAY canceled because
we were busy chit-chating..
hhahhahhaa...
tok lots of things with them...
mimi n siti keep bully me!!
since siti hv friend n mimi dun wan to help me
to bully siti so i just let them bully me!!
hahhahahhaa...
* Ti... u will C next time i bully u terok2!!!
wakakakakkakakaaaa.....

I feel so happy 2day!!
u know Y?!?!
coz they make me laugh...
make me smile..
make me FORGET all the things that happened to me
this few weeks...
n
because

THERE R LOTS OF STARTS IN THE SKY 2DAY!!!!

I just LOVE to C stars..
i duno Y n when i started to like to C stars... ^^,
i seldom C stars here in singapore...
but 2day there r lots of stars..
thats Y i cant stop smiling.. =D
and of course because of some1 out there..
coz of u i can just 4get all this thing
JUST for AWHILE..
even just for awhile it means a lot to me..
thanks...

now really trying to FORGET all the thing that happened to me
this few weeks..
FORGET ALL the memories abt him...
yeah...
keep trying...
FORGET it bit by bit...
i just LET HIM GO...
just let it be...
i'm still alive without him by my side...
he also enjoy his "FREEDOM" now...
he can do wad ever he wanna do..
so..
just let it be
n just go with the flow...

may be he is not for me BUT for some other girl who really meant to be with him...

so.. just enjoy my LIFE now...
i can do lots of things without worrying
that he gonna mad at me..
he gonna jealous...
he gonna worry abt me...
yeah...
just enjoy my SINGLE LIFE for now.. ^^,

Thanks for them
n thanks for the stars...
*i thank the stars?!?!

alrite...

nites guys...

sweet dream... ^^,

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22 March 2009

I just REALIZE that my blog skin CANT b SEEN if i open it using internet Explorer
kindda weird..
just open with mozila if u wanna C the blog properly..
i duno wad is wrong with it..
just too lazy to edit it again..
so.. just kindly open my blog using mozila n u all can C blog skin n all..
^^,
but if u do not hv mozila firefox then its okey..
just read my post dun hv to c d blog skin..
i will work it out next time..
heheehehe...

thanks guys.. ^^,

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11:38 AM
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♥ Which GUY will abe to do this to HIS GIRL FRIEND?!?!

When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]
When she stare's at your lips - [Kiss her]
When she bites her lips - [kiss her]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [Grab her and don’t let go]
When she start's cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]
When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you - [Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]

When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]

When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]
When she's scared - [Protect her]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steal's your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]
When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]

When she say's that she like's you - [she really does more than you could understand]

When she grab's at your hands - [Hold her's and play with her fingers]
When she bump's into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]

WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]

When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]

When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]

When she post this - [she wants you to read it]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- DON'T let her have the last word
- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- WHen she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it

- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

&& When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

Who will b able to do ALL this stuff?!?!
i wonder if 1 day i could find a GUY who could do ALL this to me...
ho sweet it gonna be if he could do MOST of it..
not ALL but MOST of it...

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10:07 AM
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21 March 2009

I HATE my self!!!

Y?!?!
it is because
i CANT LET go wad i suppose to let go..
i really duno Y i keep holding on it!!
keep hoping that he will come back to me..
even i know that he will not come back to me..
even lots lots of ppl said he is not good guy..
lots lots of ppl said i can get a better person than him...
i really duno Y each day i just MISSING him
each day this feeling become bigger n bigger..
i really duno Y i MISS HIM?!?!?!?!?
Y MUST I MISS HIM?!?!!
pieces of my heart is missing him...
there is something that missing from me now..
there is an EMPTY space in my HEART
n i need some1 or something to fill up d EMPTY SPACE...

I HATE my self!!!
i MUST let him go rite?!?!
i really need something to make me 4get abt him!!
i need to keep my self busy!!
but busy with wad?!?!
even yesterday when i'm studying i also think of him!!!
sigh...

BUT
last thursday when i went for my dance training..
early in d morning
i felt so LONELY n
my SORROW mood come...
i just keep thinking of him..
i MISS HIM SO MUCH..
and when i start my dance practice..
i duno Y i just focus on my dance step
n 4get EVERYTHING that happened to me!!
am i really enjoy dancing?!?!
i just enjoy my time with all my dance member..
i cant explain Y i really can 4get wad happened to me..
and i also can 4get abt him!!
i duno wad happened?!??!
then after dance i think "am i really enjoy dancing?!?!"
i cant answer my own question...
sigh...

NOW the problem is whenever i'm alone i will think of him..
wad is wrong with me?!!?
HE dun even giv a damn to me now!!
4 him i'm JUST invisible now..
Y i still think of him?!?!
Y?!?!?
can any1
TELL ME ONEVALID REASON Y I CANT let him go that easily?!?!
*Yeah,,, ONE.. JUST ONE REASON!!!!!
n

TELL ME Y MUST I LET HIM GO?!?!?!?

CAN ANY ONE TELL ME!!!!!

SERIOUSLY....
I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!

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19 March 2009

Sigh...
holiday is going to end soOn!!
n guess wad?!?!
i havent finish my homework!!!
DAMN it!!
5 more to go man!!
uhuhuuuhuhuuu...

this morning wake up n felt very very very
BORED n I duno Y i just FELL so

LONELY!!!!!

i just duno Y i just felt that way...
and i just duno Y i'm just MISSING HIM!!
sigh...

Y cant I just LET HIM GO?!?!
Y is it so DIFFICULT for me to let him go?!?!
wad did he do till make me feel this way?!?!
wad make me LOVE him sOo dEePLy?!?!
sigh...
i cant explain Y i can LUV him that much...
i also duno wad make me LUV him?!?!
its not abt materials or face or ur intelligent
its about my FEELING towards U..
u get wad i mean?!?!
u understand now?!?!
*hopefully some1 out there understand wad i feel n wad i mean..
or mayB only I understand that. SIGH...

is it true that "it takes few seconds or minutes to DUMP a girl?!"
*boys.. can u answer me?!?!

Y am i still thinking of him?!?!
to b honest whenever i'm alone
i'll think abt him
just like this morning...
i dunno my tears start to dropping
and i just grab my VERY 1ST "BABY" n hug it...
i luv my "babies"..
ALL of it..
BUT i also hv my favourite baby.. ^^,
anyway...

i just went to school for my last practice for the
march holiday..
we hv to perform either solo or pair..
1more week to go for the SYF..
after SYF gonna CUT my HAIR
and
concentrate for my O Lvl..

just now meeting siti at lot1 n eat dinner with her..
we start to tok abt our probz n everything..
i told her almost everything that i did
this few days..
n she was shocked!!
ahahahhaa...

clarification abt my previous post..
the guy form my past was not
the 1 u expected man!!
he is not here!!
he just out there..
somewhere..
at another part of this world..
he is NOT in SINGAPORE...
anyway...
i just wanna clarify that..
so U cant ASSUME!!!
that HE is HERE..
he is NOT EVEN NEAR by my side NOW..
i CANT even C him!!
sigh...
my life is SsSsOoOo unpredictable...
yeah.. its MY LIFE,,,

Nites Guys... ^^,

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16 March 2009

2day is the very 1st day of my march holiday!!
nth much abt this holiday la actually..
even i have a holiday i still need to go to school
for dance practice coz SYF is ard the corner!!
only 3 more weeks left!!
soOo.. need to put more effort during the practice.
sigh..
hopefully the result of the SYF can b my BIRTHDAY PRESENT
from my dance mate n from my school!!
hahahahahaa...

from just now i was doing my math assignment for this holiday..
its damn freaking a lot man!!
i still hv lots of home work to b done!!
sigh...
so many work too little time..
wad can i do?!?!
should manage my time properly...
can i manage my time properly?!!?
can i?!?!
well.. just C whether i can finish all d home work
and all the revision for my bio test next week or not..
i havent even start my bio revision!!
DAMN IT!!!

Out of sudden this guy from the past come to my life again..
he started to msg me..
started to give that "concern" to me..
we started to tok again..
we started to catch up with each other..
it has been few months we didnt contact each other
after that accident happened..
and now he started to contact me again..
nothing has change from him..
nothing has change from the way he tok to me..
he just the same as last time..
he still d 1 who i know last time...
wad he said was right..
"after all this thing happen nothing will change.. we still like last time"
thatz wad he told me that day..
even that time i still not really sure abt wad did he said..
but now.. he prove it to me
that nothing has change from him..
his attitude towards me still d same as last time..
his attitude just the same as wad he did to me b4 that accident..
did he come at the right time?!!??
y he come again to my life now??!
now i dun wan to giv too much hope into it..
i just go with the flow now...
me my self n he himself also dun exactly know
when we can meet each other again..
anyway..
when the right time is come me n him will meet each other..
either we plan to meet each other
or we accidentally bum to each other somewhere next time..

Y this life is FULL of SURPRISES n SO COMPLICATED?!?!?!
y people just walk in n walk out from our life?!?!
who will stay forever in our life at the end?!?!
who is our soul mate?!?!
can we find our soul mate so easily?!?!
how we know that this person is our soul mate?!?!
does the 1 who always b with us is our soul mate?!?!?!

we really cant predict wad will happen to us today..

tomorrow...

the next day...
next month..

next year..

we only can plan our future..

but...

will it really happen according to our plan?!?!

nobody knows...

its a mystery...

life is FULL of MYSTERY...

wad CRAP i talking abt now?!?!
i dun even know wad i talking about here..
just ignore my nonsense post 2day...
too stress till like this!!!
ahahahahahha...

ENJOY UR HOLIDAY GUYS... ^^,

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15 March 2009

my plan to go study at changi really happened!!
ahahahhaa...
me.. my sist.. toto and yu hao went to changi to study!!
so far huh?!?!
but.. we really did that thing!!
hahahahaa..
after all d arguments we had..
we went there..
u know wad time we reach there?!?!
we reach there ard 5+
hahahaa...
b4 went there something FUNNY happened
between me n toto!!
we really laugh out loud!!
cant stop laughing when we tok abt it!!
wakakakakaaa...
i feel i'm really stupid..
toto asked me called yuhao n yet i called him
n straight away say "tan *% *#@.. ni cai na li?!"
n toto was very very OON n said "huh?! i'm toto!!"
n we both laugh!!
hahahahhahaa....
i didnt realize that i called him!!
anyway...
thatz our joke of d day...
another joke we create at changi!!
also make fun of my dearest yuHao...
*sorry yuHao.. dun get hurt okey... ^^,

we study at TCC at terminal3 changi airport..
we sit there till 9 o'clock
4 of us order drink n sit down there do our assignment
n also scold each other...
joke joke..
well... when we study dun hv to b too focus!!
need to relax also rite?!?! =p
then out of sudden 1 of us said " lets go watch movie!"
then we started to tok abt wad movie is showing in the cinema now..
since yuHao's phone is really hitec so he check the nearest cinema.
at last we decided to watch "COMING SOON"
it's a horror movie..
its DAMN BLOODY scary!!
MUST WATCH that movie!!
i recommended that movie if u wan to watch horror movie!!
then we watch that movie at 915 at downtown east there..
after that went home take 67 all d way from tampines to cck!!
ahahahaha...
2day is the 1st time yuHao wet home late!!
brake record man!!
congrats yuHao.. =p
next time do it again!!!
ahahahhaa...
next time we go to changi again to study Okey?!?!
ahahhhahaa..

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11:55 PM
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14 March 2009

Well..nothing much 2day..
actually planed to go study with siti n yu hao..
but at the end just chit chat with yu hao..
hahahahahaa...
at first my mood of studying really there BUT
after meet him all gone!!
he make my study mood GONE!!
must blame him!!
ahhahhhahaa....
after meet him then went to BPP..
we eat at LJS there..
eat the seafood combo!!
its expensive man!!
$6++ and its not really nice!! =p
then he add on with shrimp and pegled chicken..
we share d food as i have not enough money
n he also dun wan to eat so much..
so at the end we share!!
ahahahhaa..
but still he d 1 who eat most of it.. =p
well he pay more mag..

after that went to siti's house..
thanks to her let me go her house...
as i duno where to go?!?!
rather than just stay at home do nth
i prefer go some where..
and i went to her house as she also at home alone..
so i acc her..
ahahhhaa...
went there play with her cat KIMORA..
she very cute!!
just like me!! (hahahaha.. vomit blood)
siti as peNormal..
she like to play with my HAIR!!!
u know wad she did?!?!
she perm my hair!!
hahahaha...
she said i look nice if i perm my hair!!
well...
now i'm confuse..
whether to perm my hair..
cut my hair short..
or just cut a little bit..
any suggestion guys?!?!
which 1 suit me most?!?!
*i cant post the pict when i perm my hair... mayb next time..

anyway.. i still have few more weeks to think abt my NEW hair style!!
hahahahaha...
2morrow plan to go to Changi with Toto to study
but not confirm yet..
just C 2mrw wad will happen..
whether we really study or like today!!
aahhahhahaa...
sigh.. lots of work to do!!!

I NEED A BREAK MAN!!!!

DAMN IT!!!

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11:44 PM
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at last i can get back my com!!
my com can use already
BUT d problem is
NO INTERNET!!!
huhuhuhuhuhuuuu...
now use FREE WIRELESS!!
at least can use internet 4 free!!
ehehehehee...

school holiday start already..
i dun like short holiday like this!!
gonna have lots of HomeWork!!
n yes...
all d teacher giv us homework to do!!
aiz...
i prefer to go to school!!
when the school re-open gonna have bio test!!
sigh..
lots of tings to b done this holiday!!
yesterday went to d parents meeting session!!
my result not that good!!
huhuhuhuhuuu..
feel bad abt it!!
need to improve lots of things!!
sigh...
after SYF work extra hard man!!!
O Lvl is DAMN BLOODY IMPORTANT!!!!

very bored now..
stay at home alone...
nothing to do..
after this gonna go to mac to study!!
ahhahaha...
sit there till nite!!
the mac stuff asked me "here ur 2nd house arh?!"
n u know my answer?!?!
my answer was "YES"
hahahhha...
macDonals really become my 2nd house man!!
every time go there n study till the macdonals almost close like that,,
hahahahaha,,,

okey...
enough for mow...

wanna prepare my things n go to mcd to study..
at least study 2 subject 2day!!
ahhahahaa...

cya... ^^,

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11:59 AM
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11 March 2009

Today suppose to be a VERY SPECIAL day for me!!!
BUT its GONE now!!
its just like any other day
when i need to go to school...
go for dance practice...
go for AIP...
n just do my normal activity!!

i suppose to celebrating such a HAPPY n SPECIAL day 2day!!
well... its no longer as a SPECIAL day 4 me!!

anyway...
today i went to school with my sorrow mood!!!
but at least in school there r lots of friends
who could makes me feel happier!!
at least they could make me smile or even laugh!!
2day my 3rd bestie nvr cum to school!!
got stomachache la... wad la..
BUT when i asked him out to go eat PizzaHut
he just agree n wanna join me n my other friend!!
when my friend asked him to go
he said he got stomachache n dun wanna go
but when i asked him to join us he says OK!!
is he really get a stomachache?!?!
i really duno abt it!!
hahhaha...
anyway... at last 3 of us head to pizzaHut at lot1 n eat there..
they had a student meal but it serve for 4students!!
i was thinking to ask my sweet loving dardar
*vomit blood seh!! hahahaa...
but too bad she got smth on today
so only 3 of us eat!
n guess wad?!?!
they charge us $2 extra coz there were 3 of us only!!
huh...
bloody hell!!!
while we r eating we telling jokes..
n just tok2 like that..
tok crab!!
hahahahahaaa...
they really light up my day man!!
thanks for them...

Thats the only thing we left!! hahahha..

then u know wad?!?!
we bought 3 ez-link sticker!!
hahahahaha...
at 1st i saw that sticker n i think that d sticker is DAMN cute!
then he notice it!!
he d 1 who decide to buy that sticker
so 3 of us choose 3 different type of sticker n paste it on
our ez-link card!!
aagagaggagaaa,,,,
cute seh!!

Thats our sticker!! ahahahaa... cute rite?!?! ^^,
*guess which 1 is mine?!!??

then watched WATCH MAN!!
d show is DAMN BLOODY LONG!!!!
n someMore when i watch that movie
my mind was not into the movie!!
actually my mind is some where out there!!!
haahhahaa...
i dun really understand d movie is all abt la?!?!
waste money only!! =p
but.. its okey..
once a year can la!!
some more i need to release my STRESS!!!
hahahahaha...
i also plan to do something to my appearance!!!
wahhahahaa...

well.. after d movie we all say bye to each other,,
n both of them head to bus interchange
n i went to someWhere...
i realize that i've done a STUPID thing!!
Y can i do such a stupid thing?!?!
oh man!!
ya.. i went to a place where i always go when i still with him
i remember wad i promise him!!
he wanted me to promise him that on
our 1st Year anniversary he wan me to go to a plc where
we always go..
and i really go there...
i know he HATE ppl who brake their promises!!
i still remember it very well!!
he asked me go to a place where i said " like that also can"
to him b4 he went to Malaysia!!
*how can i still remember all this?!?!
n ya,,,
i went there just now!!
i just wanna know whether he is there or not?!?!
even i knew that he WON'T be there 4 me!!!
i just wanna make sure.. thats all!!
at least if he was there i can find something that can show me
that he was there few hours ago....
while i walking to that plc
my tears dripping!!
all the memory i had with him like come to my mind again..
n while i walking to d plc where we always sit
my heart cry!!! not my eyes...
my heart scream!!! not my mouth...
its very pain!!! i'm in pain!!
u know that kind of feeling?!?!
i just can remember those days when we were 2gether there,,,
we were there look at d sky...
looked at d stars n d moon!!
there is no bright stars n moon 2nite!!
i just leave that plc n went to other plc where
we START our "STORY"
i just take a short walk from MRT to that plc..
while i'm walking it started to rain...
then i quickly walk to d plc where we start all over again...
i still remember that day
he was soOo nervous!!
he dun even know wad to say to me!!
hahahaha...
then i just sit there...
remember that day when he said that words..
n all d memory flashed back into my mind again!!!
all d thing we've done...
all d thing we went through...
all d pain...
all d happiness...
all d sad time...
all d quarrel..
everything..
i just take another look at that plc
and...
i just walk off n leave all d memory behind...

Thats where we BEGIN our "STORY"

It STARTED there,,,

and Now.. I'm just ALONE there...

i duno Y i just feel very stupid!!
even i knew he WILL NOT be there n i still go there!!
wad for rite?!?!
sometimes i really do not know Y girls always do such stupid things...
am i suppose to do that?!?!
i also duno Y i go to that plc
even i know thats going to hurts me even more!!
wad in my mind was hopping that he is there waiting for me to come..
just like wad he promise me!!
and..
he broke his own promise!!!
do u know how it feels?!?!
DO U KNOW?!?!???!?!!

anyway,,, i have to move on!!!
i cant just STUCK down here!!!!
i have to move on!!!
just take all this as a part of growing up..
yeah,,,

like wad i always said

If we are meant to be together..

NO MATTER what happened in between

at the end we WILL be TOGETHER...

*background SUCK man!! hahha..

thatz wad i always said to my friends...

n thatz d fact!!!
just move on n carry out with my life now!!
ahahahhaa...
just remember that sentence... ^^,

♥ and Love will show u everything ♥
11:30 PM
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10 March 2009

Its been 1week plus i nvr blogging!!
ahhahahaha,,,
now i doing my math work at the com lab n i take d time to post here!!
hahahahhaa...
bad rite?!?!
teacher asked me to do my work n i go blogging.
well.. its good to be bad sometimes. =p

well.. school as per normal today.
now school really stressing!!
more homework n test..
anyway... nest week i have 1 week holiday..
but dun think that i can enjoy the holiday!!
i gonna "DIE"soon man!!
during the holiday also need to go to school...
go for some remedial and go for dance practice
syf cuming man!!
next month!!
coz of this SYF i CANT CUT my hair!!!
i havem to wait till next month alfer SYF!!
huhuhhuhhuuu...
i really wan to cut my hair now!!!
wan to get new look n "new"" me
ehhehehehee...

tomorrow is 11 march 2009
it suppose to b a HAPPY day for me!!
it suppose to b a SPECIAL day for me!!
but its NO LONGER a HAPPY n SPECIAL day for me!!
after that happen...
after I put FULSTOP for my relationship..
after i ENDED my relationship.
its no longer my happy n special day..
its just gonna be a normal day for me!!
well... just go through it,,
i just can imagine that he will come to my house
or the place where we start our relationship n giving me
some surprise,,,'
well.. thats wad i always imagine now!!
BUT i really duno if he ask me to patch back
i accept him or not?!?!
wad i know is that i still love him..
but he is gone now..
he is no longer mine,,,
this whole year he made me happy..
smile..
he is my motivation..
he really can make me happy this whole year..
(not that whole year anyway,,)
but the thing is that he makes me happy..
we have go through lots of things...
well.. thatz d end of it...
*or its not the end?! is it just the begining?!?!

anyway..
he already enjoy his life n i hope that he is happy with it...
now is time for me to enjoy my life...
concentrate for my O Lvl...
yeah,,,
thatz wad i gonna do..

Just because i SMILE
it DOES NOT MEAN
that
I'm HAPPY..
because it takes ONE SMILE
to COVER
a MILLION TEARS...

♥ and Love will show u everything ♥
3:18 PM
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01 March 2009

nothing to say now..
today went to bugis n china town..
with my friend n my sist..
go buy durian panCake..
this week i really need to get some refreshment!!
i really need that!!
just to forget wad happen to me this few days or few weeks.
so.. i really need to find some refreshment n something to forget abt wad happened to me...
so really need to keep my self busy...
so that i will not keep thinking abt it.
so i have to keep my self busy..
from keep going out with my friends or my sist
or just to go out somewhere..
just to walk2 n look around
and find something that attract me.
ehhehehhehee..
now really wan to buy shoes at BP n 1 pants at bugis there.
now got discount!!
so wanna buy!!
but duno whether still hv it or not.

hheemm... i think he really happy with his life now..
hopefully he really enjoy his life..
i really hope that he is happy,,,
that wad i really wan..
actually i dun wan to cut my friendship after all this.
hope that i can continue my friendship..
i really duno wad he really wan us to be.
soOo.. just let it be...
i really accept his decision..
so just 4get all the past..
just 4get all the thing that happened last time..
just continue our new life.
anything can happen within a day..
within a week...
within a month..
within a year..
so we really cant predict wad will happen next.
yeah...
thatz all...
just go through it...
anything he can just contact me..
anything he can call me..
i will not take revenge of all the thing that just happened.
i will not hate him...
yeah..
thatz wad i going to do...
well thatz from now...
i just wan him to b happy now...

♥ and Love will show u everything ♥
11:57 AM
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